So...I hope that everyone is having a great day. I am hanging in there. I have been working all week thus far and have to til Friday, so that doesn't make me all that excited. I've also taken up working out more to ease some of the frustrations that I've had. I ran today around the neighborhood, and am probably going to work out for a little bit at Proclub after our staff meeting at 2:30. Do a little treadmill and weights probably. So we are down to 2-3 days til my brother comes home. Yay! Other than that all I can think about is my great ability of getting into fights with people so easily now. And I can't stand it anymore.

I was looking at pictures the other day of when I was younger. Seeing pictures of birthday parties with friends and seeing pictures of our neighborhood in Bellevue and playing with the neighborhhood kids, now all I do with friends is end up yelling at them. I honestly don't know if it is a matter of just being nit picky or if they are utterly just thinking about themselves and it sets me off, I think its a combination. I think as simple as I may think I am as a person, I am difficult to understand to others. Either that or too simple for people to handle, can't really tell. My intention is to not blow away everyone that enters my life, I just want to be respected and understood. Sometimes I feel as if I'm asking too much from people and maybe I am and for those people I apologize. I guess lately I have just wanted to make myself stronger and do things for me and so many have gotten used to the Jen that does everything for other people.

Change is never easy. Neither for people around you or yourself. And I know I add fuel to the fire when I don't want to solve the issue or go into my shell. But it just seems that I have the same arguments with people over and over again to the point where I get annoyed with dealing it. And yes I know it isn't fair since others have "done the damage" in the past. So I think the goal now is to in some way get over all the beef I have with people and when I'm ready talk to the people that have beef with me, and also settle those issues that never seem to go away.

I'm sure that most who read this know that much of this deals with my love life or lack there of. And its true, it does. What will happen to dating? I'm going to avoid anything pertaining to dating. Kissing, hugging, holding hands...you name it and I'm not doing it and given time, when it happens, it will be nothing but my own information. It seems that others know much more about my situations than I do and absolutely love having their 15 min of living like Dr. Phil to let me know how to run it. So I'm going to take a casual approach and hang out with both girls and guys and not let anyone have the say of who I hang out with or not. So many times people listen to others and they discredit the most important person...themselves, and I'm not going to let that happen.

I can't wait for school to start. I want so badly to finish and head up to Western and start working on my major. For those who don't know, I want to be an elementary school teacher, preferably teaching 4th grade. I also want to look into counseling and looking at abnormal psychology aspects in children and working with them to solve their problems. I did a paper on the school shooters Spring quarter of my sophomore year in college and got really interested in the topic. So I'm hoping that can correlate with teaching. And then to tie everything together, I'd love to coach a junior high level soccer team. As I see it now, I will be certified as a K-8 teacher, so I can do that! But first of all I need to be accepted to both Western and Woodring. The only thing I'm really concerned about is passing my state basics test for teaching. But it's like the SAT's in a sense, so I'm crossing my fingers. As of 8/30, Western had recieved all my information! YAY!

Anyways that is all the updates here, off to get ready for work!

Bye!