I'm not going to be updating for a while....I'll let you all know when I've got more time!

Thanks for the understanding!

Jen

I saw this on a website. I just want to say for those people who passed away during 9-11, you will never be forgotten. You stand for all the pride and freedom that we all still living have gotten to experience. It's so unfortunate that it took that event to show the US just how great of a country we are. For the victims' families...God Bless!

I Miss You Daddy

Enjoy!

Well Jeff left back to WSU today...bummed that he left but I'm sure Thanksgiving will roll around fairly quickly. Yes I know its two months away!!

Today I have to work til 8, not too thrilled. I'll just spend most of it sitting by a pool in the rain studying for my test next Saturday!

Other than that, it's another boring day in Jen's world! :)

Bye

Just thought I'd put my playlist that I have on my IPod...take a look!

Hey everyone...

Hope your weekend is going well. Mine is just another weekend, nothing too exciting. Went over today and helped my grandpa get rid of more shit at his house before the big move next weekend...more and more we are getting things closer to being done!

My brother has been home for a couple days now. It's been great to see him and even more so not him changing while being in the frat. Today he went to the Washington State and Colorado game so he's doing that then some catering thing at a WSU function I believe on Mercer Island.

I work tomorrow then it's a goal of mine to study for my state test which I have next Saturday! Oh boy!
Other than thatI should be good for this week as far as a busy schedule is concerned :).

Talked to Mike last night on the phone, that guy cracks me up! It's been good to catch up with him lately.

Jon left for Bellingham to go move in with the boys up there. Hopefully he'll enjoy living with them and find some commonality with them. One of the guys is a high school friend, but I think he'll enjoy being around the rest of them. I'm jealous because he is yet another person out on their own...me, I'm still with the parents. Yes I know my time will come...

Other than that I'm off to the library to pick up a book!

See ya!

Also pray for the survivors and families today for the 3rd anniversary of 9-11!! Thanks guys!! God Bless!!!

 VS.

So...I hope that everyone is having a great day. I am hanging in there. I have been working all week thus far and have to til Friday, so that doesn't make me all that excited. I've also taken up working out more to ease some of the frustrations that I've had. I ran today around the neighborhood, and am probably going to work out for a little bit at Proclub after our staff meeting at 2:30. Do a little treadmill and weights probably. So we are down to 2-3 days til my brother comes home. Yay! Other than that all I can think about is my great ability of getting into fights with people so easily now. And I can't stand it anymore.

I was looking at pictures the other day of when I was younger. Seeing pictures of birthday parties with friends and seeing pictures of our neighborhood in Bellevue and playing with the neighborhhood kids, now all I do with friends is end up yelling at them. I honestly don't know if it is a matter of just being nit picky or if they are utterly just thinking about themselves and it sets me off, I think its a combination. I think as simple as I may think I am as a person, I am difficult to understand to others. Either that or too simple for people to handle, can't really tell. My intention is to not blow away everyone that enters my life, I just want to be respected and understood. Sometimes I feel as if I'm asking too much from people and maybe I am and for those people I apologize. I guess lately I have just wanted to make myself stronger and do things for me and so many have gotten used to the Jen that does everything for other people.

Change is never easy. Neither for people around you or yourself. And I know I add fuel to the fire when I don't want to solve the issue or go into my shell. But it just seems that I have the same arguments with people over and over again to the point where I get annoyed with dealing it. And yes I know it isn't fair since others have "done the damage" in the past. So I think the goal now is to in some way get over all the beef I have with people and when I'm ready talk to the people that have beef with me, and also settle those issues that never seem to go away.

I'm sure that most who read this know that much of this deals with my love life or lack there of. And its true, it does. What will happen to dating? I'm going to avoid anything pertaining to dating. Kissing, hugging, holding hands...you name it and I'm not doing it and given time, when it happens, it will be nothing but my own information. It seems that others know much more about my situations than I do and absolutely love having their 15 min of living like Dr. Phil to let me know how to run it. So I'm going to take a casual approach and hang out with both girls and guys and not let anyone have the say of who I hang out with or not. So many times people listen to others and they discredit the most important person...themselves, and I'm not going to let that happen.

I can't wait for school to start. I want so badly to finish and head up to Western and start working on my major. For those who don't know, I want to be an elementary school teacher, preferably teaching 4th grade. I also want to look into counseling and looking at abnormal psychology aspects in children and working with them to solve their problems. I did a paper on the school shooters Spring quarter of my sophomore year in college and got really interested in the topic. So I'm hoping that can correlate with teaching. And then to tie everything together, I'd love to coach a junior high level soccer team. As I see it now, I will be certified as a K-8 teacher, so I can do that! But first of all I need to be accepted to both Western and Woodring. The only thing I'm really concerned about is passing my state basics test for teaching. But it's like the SAT's in a sense, so I'm crossing my fingers. As of 8/30, Western had recieved all my information! YAY!

Anyways that is all the updates here, off to get ready for work!

Bye!

Listening to: Fighting Temptations by Beyonce

So today I'm working at the Proclub, I have missed it but not too mucb. I'm working 4-close, which I really hate that shift. But I get to work with Seth and a couple other people I enjoy at Pro, so I'm excited!

I'm just so frustrated about things...I guess it's time to eat cheesecake and stay up late...

"U Should've Known Betta"

I didn’t ask to go with you to Mexico
I really didn’t need the shopping spree
In L.A. or Melrose, boy if you didn’t know it
Well, now you know, I didn’t need the furs or the jewelries
Because material things it don’t mean much to me
And ever since you been gone
I have been holding us down on my own

I never ever cheated
I never ever lied
So u can stop asking, asking me why
Why I never left you, and why I kept it real
And why im still with you

You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to10
You should’ve known better

What makes you think that I would forget about you
Think about it who comes to see ya
Every Saturday and Monday I was on that receiver
It’s me your girl your life your world
My family and friends they just don’t understand
They say I should leave you lone
But I say that they should just leave us lone
Don’t u get it

I never ever cheated
I never ever lied
So u can stop asking, asking me why
Why I never left you, and why I kept it real
And why im still with you

You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to 10
You should’ve known better

You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
Matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to10
You should’ve known better